Summer of Maybe

seeking peace in the brambles

I recently had a lovely astrology reading from Stella the Good Enough Witch. It is a personal tradition that I treat myself to a reading/healing session around or before my birthday. One of the messages that has continued to ring through my days since our meeting, was something that Stella affirmed for me, “it’s a Summer of maybe.” 

When we find ourselves in the midst of major shifts in our lives (and in the collective) it is easy to feel both untethered and deeply uncomfortable with the unknowns we are left to wade through. Maybe is an invitation to be with the both/and of this period of dissolution and reconstruction. Because what is transformation without discomfort? How could we stretch and grow without the pressure, or without the experienced sense of mystery? Often the answers, solutions and confirmations we seek are hiding within the unknown, born out of the tension and pressure created when we open ourselves up to being transformed. 

One thing about this Summer of maybe, is that I can feel how the answers are becoming themselves. The answers are not to be rushed, coached, or shaped – when in all honesty I wish they would. Rather than pushing or plotting, swimming in the essence of maybe may give birth to something more, other, different. 

So many things are shifting in my personal world; a move is on the horizon, my child will be starting daycare soon, my family continues to struggle through a health crisis, and my work is evolving in dynamic and surprising ways. On top of it all, we are tasked with the urgent demands of being humans on this planet at a very precarious moment. We must turn our attention to the suffering around us, with a full heart and minds hungry to solve big interconnected problems. I know I am not alone in my capacity stretching to hold so much more than I previously thought possible. 

My Summer of maybe is encouraging me to be present with these unknowns and complexities – and to be okay with not having answers, timelines, calendars, plans! Knowing that it is ok to not know the answer to the problems I am grappling with - both big and small - gives me the room I need to be with the information I have at my fingertips. What makes me feel joyful in my mundane routines? What connections are fortifying my ability to show up braver and bolder than before? What small manageable changes are holistically resourcing me and my family and my community? 

In light of this I will be pausing my intuitive divination practice until the Winter. As I focus on what is changing I give space for my own practice to shape-shift. I look forward to reconnecting and recreating how we meet in sacred space.

So this is my humble invitation to you to swim in the space of maybe. Let’s see what happens when we attempt to attune our psychic currents to the shifting tides rather than dig in our heels. 

FOUND IN THE BRAMBLES: 

A list of things by the way by ~

• Looking forward to this read: Warlike, Howling, Pure

• This wonderful episode of The Herbal Highway: Diaspora Medicine with Layla K Feghali

• Milky oat tincture from Heilbron herbs. Use my referral code for a discount!

• Go ahead and make a berry pie! You deserve to revel in the sweetness of the bramble.